How can a mother explain to her children that by her unfaithfulness their father left their home? How can she say she is sorry that they won't have parents to raise them in the nurture and admonition of the Lord? How can she say, "I'm sorry you'll miss the family life of a good Christian home," because she was so wicked? How can she answer her child's question, "Mommy, why did Daddy leave us; why doesn't he come back home?" How can she say, "I'm sorry?"

     I've spent many months torturing myself with these thoughts. I wish there was a way I could reach out and help another mother who is listening to the world, and is about to make the same mistake I did.

     Three years ago I was a strong Christian, living and doing all I could to please God. But I started keeping company with people of the world, rather than my Christian brethren, and soon I was listening and doing those things I knew to be wrong. I neglected to apply the verse "Evil companions corrupt good morals." I thought I could handle anything. Soon, I met a man who convinced me that my good Christian husband was too strict with me. I needed to break loose and live, and I was weak enough to listen.

     Now, today, I am raising my children alone. I cannot remarry and give them a father that they so need. I don't have that wonderful husband to hold me when I'm hurting. I don't have the man I promised to love the rest of my life. I don't have the man I married and loved, and still love.

     You see, I committed adultery. I broke so many of God's commandments. I lied to cover what I was doing. I stole from my children their father. I murdered my husband's love for me. But most of all, I crucified Christ over and over again.

     I'm sorry, children, that I caused your daddy to leave home. I'm sorry that I hurt your daddy so much. I'm sorry that I found out too late just how deeply I love your daddy. But you see, children, now Daddy doesn't love me.